I can't wait to see what our little fish will be like at Nana's house in Texas. I'm sure we will have a hard time keeping him out of the back yard. Greg better rest up while he can because he's on pool duty when we get there.
The long car above is the one Greg built. The first time we raced them, they both fell apart at the end of the track.
The car above is mine...mine was a little easier to fix the second time around.
Hayden playing on the big train track.Greg's car is on the right and mine is on the left.
Our cars are the ones that made it all the way to the end. Greg's was on the left this time and the one that fell apart at the end. Mine actually stayed intact!!
Greg and Hayden hula hooping!
How can you get much cute than that!
I think the picture above is just hilarious. Inside the mall near the foodcourt they have a huge play area for the kids. This mall is only about 15 minutes from our house and it's such a neat place. Hayden and like to come here on rainy days to let out some of his excess energy. The entire play area is all sports related. It really is an adorable play ground and one of the best I have seen inside a mall. The only down fall is that sometimes it can get a little crowded. This mall even has child tables to sit at to make the kids feel extra special.
Hayden said mommy take my picture....cheese. Hayden's personality has really blossomed over the past few months. I think he's quite funny. But, I'm a little biased too.
Hayden and I had our annual trip to Texas planned for September. We were very excited to go, we even bought Hayden brand new luggage to take with him. Since the baby was due at the beginning of the year, Greg was going to roll over a week of vacation to use to be with us after the baby was born. Now that our situation has changed, Greg is going to come with us! Now we are even more excited than we were before!! It will be so nice for the 3 of us to get away for an entire week and spend the time with our family that we love and miss so much. We can't wait to see you guys. Hayden has changed so much since you saw him last. I'm so excited Greg gets to come with us, I can hardly contain myself.
This is the 4th time I've started this post. I've wanted to tell you how I'm feeling about our loss. But, I don't think that is necessary. You all know I'm angry and upset and can probably imagine the many reasons why. I think at this point it is important for me to tell you that I'm doing all right! Each day it gets a little easier to deal with. The pain and the grief has not gone away but, I'm learning how to deal with it.
A week ago today we were on a family day trip to the zoo and had no clue what was in store for us the next day. I woke up Wednesday morning hoping for some sort of relief to start feeling better but, instead I was hit with a devastating blow. No one can tell you how to react or even how to prepare for something like this. You never think it will happen to you. However, as a family we have stuck together and hopefully have gotten through the worst of it. Greg has been on vacation since last Tuesday. Having him here this entire time has truly been a blessing. We have filled our days with fun family activities. We've cried and laughed and enjoyed being together. He goes back to work on Thursday and I'm not looking forward to being by myself but, it will be nice for Hayden and I to get back into the groove of things. I'm extremely thankful to everyone that has helped us get through this. The conversations and shoulders to lean on have been invaluable. I know that life goes on and one day we will be blessed with another child. Now was just not our time and I'm ok with that. I know that this is God's plan for us an in time the pain will go away.
Thank you to our Family and Friends who have been by our side this entire time. We couldn't go through this without you.
